Well, it is 11:50pm and we just got home from the hospital. My grandmother is still the same. It is so frustrating. It is so exhausting, I cannot even blog about it.
Today, I left the office early to go to the hospital. My husband picked me up, and we had to run some errands. (I got a snow cone on the way... strawberry...too sweet...)One of them was to go to Babies R Us. Now, I understand that place is the baby mecca, but their clothes suck! We spent so much time looking for something that did not have an applique or some cheesy saying on it. We decided, that will be the place for necessities!! A childhood friend of mine just gave birth to twin boys. Welcome to the world Brodie & Laker! We got to go to the NICU and hold them. They are so precious. They both weighed a little over 5 pounds, and will probably get to go home later this week!
I have a doctors appointment tomorrow morning, and we will figure out the retrieval date! I still think it will be Saturday. Tonight, we think that my husband must have hit a vein or something when he gave me the shot, because I bled like crazy!
Today I am thankful that I have such a diverse family. I love that my family is from coast to coast and that everyone has different lifestyles. My extended family is pretty cool. My cousin, Jeff, was telling my husband and I tonight about his travels to Indonesia, Taiwan, Thailand and all other things he has done. He tried to convince us to move to Virginia, where he could get my husband involved in some business adventures. After he told us about his investments, we might have to take a chance!
I think that it is only appropriate, since today at work MJ's funeral was on a projector in a conference room from 11:30-2:00, that the song of the day is "I'll Be There" by the Jackson 5! RIP Michael.... but now it is time to move on to serious news!!! ~Amy
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Monday, July 6, 2009
Producing Eggs and Spilling Secrets
I went to my doctors appointment and nearly fell asleep on the table....during a "wand" ultrasound, to be polite. How is it possible? I am EXHAUSTED! The good news? I am responding very, very well to the medicine, in fact, better than the last time. Good, good news! My doctor is predicting my retrieval to be Saturday, but will know for sure Thursday!
So, do you know what it is like to have a secret that you have known for like, um... 7 weeks and could not tell because you promised someone you wouldn't??? Well, I have permission now! Our GREAT friends Magan & Jarrod are going to be welcoming their first born in February!
CONGRATULATIONS!!!
We are so excited! Especially when we get pregnant and our babies can be good friends too! How wonderful! You know, my husband and Jarrod are exactly 1 month, to the day, apart. If we have multiples, they will be here in March. Too cute!
After I left work today, I picked up my aunt who flew in from Chicago, and went straight to the hospital. It is 10:50pm, and we just got home. We are basically taking turns watching my grandmother die. I know that sounds horrific, but it is the truth. It sucks. I feel so bad for her, she did not want to live like this. My husband got back to OKC at exactly 8pm, so he brought the shots and met me at the hospital. He gave me my shots there. My aunt witnessed it and said she is so proud of me, because there is no way she could do all of this. It is not about me, though!
Speaking of, that is what I am thankful for today. I am thankful that God blessed me with the gift of giving. I work with some ladies that are so selfish it makes me ill. I am not sure if it is the hormones, or just me in general, but today I spoke to some coworkers about pitching in on a baby shower gift for another coworker. My close friends and I were talking about getting a gift card. A couple of women, who are not poor, thought they would give $5. I about died. $5? Really? And what exactly are you going to buy for $5? I told them that if they would like to buy a pacifier and wrap it up as a gift, they are more than welcomed. $5.... that is an insult. I cannot imagine even offering that. Then, some women thought we did not need to do a shower since a family member was having one for her AND one of these girls is one of her close friends. Pathetic. Selfish, selfish, selfish. I cannot stand selfish, tight/cheap people!!! Ugh! After the meeting I thought that I might have made some mad, but I don't care. My coworker told me that is why people like me so well. She said that I say things that everyone else is thinking, and I can be harsh, but I have the biggest heart of anyone she knows... I guess that is a compliment, right???
The song that made me have peace in my heart today was "Three Little Birds" by Bob Marley. Me, my husband, and my aunt were on grandma duty from 7-10pm tonight. My husband went outside to escort my aunt to go smoke and I was left alone with my grandmother. I closed my eyes on the chair/bed next to her and that song was in my head. It just made me feel good.
My next appointment is Wednesday and we will know a closer date!!! I can't believe it is almost here!
~Amy
Sunday, July 5, 2009
What a Long Day
Today was a long day. We got home from the hospital last night at 2a.m. Amy didn't sleep that well and was up by 6:30. She decided to blog and let me sleep in a little. We went to an Episcopal church. It was a nice church, but it was not quite the right fit for Amy and me. After church, Amy wanted to check on her grandmother. We headed to the hospital, but her grandmother is not doing well. Her kidneys are beginning to fail her. She was able to talk a little bit with Amy and me and said she is ready to go and does not want to prolong her life. She has fought for a long time now. Please keep her in your prayers.
We spent most of the day at the hospital. My parents stopped by. Before leaving town, Amy and I had dinner with them. After dinner, we checked in at the hospital one last time for the night. We had to get home for the shots. The shots were routine tonight. Amy looks so exhausted. She just needs some sleep. It is 8:45, and we have already headed to bed. I just got to bed, and Amy is watching Okie Noodling on OETA. For anyone who does not know, noodling is hand fishing. You have to have a little crazy and a little redneck in you to do such a thing. My noodling career lasted about 5 trips to the river. I had to experience it a couple of times and that was enough for me. Amy carries one of my noodling pictures with me and my friend Chas after a successful day fishing. People who do not know about noodling have to see the picture to believe it. Amy has been begging to go to the Okie Noodling Tournament in Pauls Valley. It is next weekend (the same weekend as retrieval) and Amy wants to figure out a way to go. We will have to see. If it does not work out this year, Amy is already planning the outfits for the twins next year.
There is another doctor's appointment tomorrow morning. I am not going to be able to make it. I have a deposition in McAlester at 9:30. I will be leaving the house by 5:30. I am blessed to have a very understanding wife. Today, I am thankful for family. Amy and I are so very lucky to have wonderful families. For today's song, I am going to choose "Mambo Italiano" by Dean Martin. Everyone have a wonderful Monday
Z
We spent most of the day at the hospital. My parents stopped by. Before leaving town, Amy and I had dinner with them. After dinner, we checked in at the hospital one last time for the night. We had to get home for the shots. The shots were routine tonight. Amy looks so exhausted. She just needs some sleep. It is 8:45, and we have already headed to bed. I just got to bed, and Amy is watching Okie Noodling on OETA. For anyone who does not know, noodling is hand fishing. You have to have a little crazy and a little redneck in you to do such a thing. My noodling career lasted about 5 trips to the river. I had to experience it a couple of times and that was enough for me. Amy carries one of my noodling pictures with me and my friend Chas after a successful day fishing. People who do not know about noodling have to see the picture to believe it. Amy has been begging to go to the Okie Noodling Tournament in Pauls Valley. It is next weekend (the same weekend as retrieval) and Amy wants to figure out a way to go. We will have to see. If it does not work out this year, Amy is already planning the outfits for the twins next year.
There is another doctor's appointment tomorrow morning. I am not going to be able to make it. I have a deposition in McAlester at 9:30. I will be leaving the house by 5:30. I am blessed to have a very understanding wife. Today, I am thankful for family. Amy and I are so very lucky to have wonderful families. For today's song, I am going to choose "Mambo Italiano" by Dean Martin. Everyone have a wonderful Monday
Z
Happy 4th of July!
Another jam packed day, but how fun! First, we had a doctors appointment at 8am. My levels are looking GREAT and they think that I am responding better to the meds than the last time! Woo-hoo! Eggs, eggs, and more eggs!!
Once we left the doctors office, we came home to get ready. My mother-in-law called my husband and told us that she was bringing pound cake and brownies. Thank goodness... no more cupcakes... We stopped by the hospital and my grandmother was NOT doing well at all, in fact, the doctor told us to basically prepare the family. We thought about not attending the festivities this afternoon, but she had a m
iraculous turnaround and is, at least, now stable. We left the hospital, and headed for Thomas. So, growing up we always attended the Norman 4th of July fireworks. Sure, I always saw fireworks stands on the outskirts of town, but never went. Typically the people in our town that were at the firework stands were the drunk hillbillies looking to "blow somethin' up." Actually, let me clarify... sometimes my dad would go and buy some sparklers, but I had no idea that they sold REAL fireworks until I met my husband. Small towns do not have the big, spectacular show, so they have to get fireworks. So, all my city girls, you would DIE when you see what you can buy at a fireworks stand!!!! For a very reasonable cost, you can buy fireworks like you see at Reeves! I am dead serious! We stopped at a stand in El Reno, and I was like a little kid. It was pathetic. I am sure the fireworks guy was not prepared for me! I love the smoke bombs, so I bought a ton and had his cousins shot them off. I am sure they were thrilled...
iraculous turnaround and is, at least, now stable. We left the hospital, and headed for Thomas. So, growing up we always attended the Norman 4th of July fireworks. Sure, I always saw fireworks stands on the outskirts of town, but never went. Typically the people in our town that were at the firework stands were the drunk hillbillies looking to "blow somethin' up." Actually, let me clarify... sometimes my dad would go and buy some sparklers, but I had no idea that they sold REAL fireworks until I met my husband. Small towns do not have the big, spectacular show, so they have to get fireworks. So, all my city girls, you would DIE when you see what you can buy at a fireworks stand!!!! For a very reasonable cost, you can buy fireworks like you see at Reeves! I am dead serious! We stopped at a stand in El Reno, and I was like a little kid. It was pathetic. I am sure the fireworks guy was not prepared for me! I love the smoke bombs, so I bought a ton and had his cousins shot them off. I am sure they were thrilled...Once we got to Thomas, the show began. Between, us, Aunt Kimmy, and his uncle Luck, fireworks started at 5 and did not end until 10. It was INSANE! I will have to admit that by about 9:30, I started to get a little tired. Plus, the humidity outside was almost intolerable at times. My husband has been researching a spark
ler bomb. He made one last night and the thin
g malfunctioned, and shot off to the side like a comet nearly setting the field on fire! It was the biggest ball of fire I have ever seen! The fireworks were so fun, even my husband's grandmother got in on it! The cutest thing ever was his cousin Nate and his little girlfriend, Rhianna. They were precious. I think that they are 5. It was hilarious. That is what I am thankful for today, being able to see the innocence in children, it is priceless! 
ler bomb. He made one last night and the thin
g malfunctioned, and shot off to the side like a comet nearly setting the field on fire! It was the biggest ball of fire I have ever seen! The fireworks were so fun, even my husband's grandmother got in on it! The cutest thing ever was his cousin Nate and his little girlfriend, Rhianna. They were precious. I think that they are 5. It was hilarious. That is what I am thankful for today, being able to see the innocence in children, it is priceless! 
The song that got us through the night is, "Looking For You" by Kirk Franklin. Our friend Jimmy, introduced us to Kirk and we love that song. Since we were driving back to the hospital last night (which we didn't leave until 2:30am) we needed a little pep in our step and that does the trick!~ Amy
Friday, July 3, 2009
Is It Tomorrow Yet?
BUSY day! We went to OBI and had our blood drawn... this time they got us both on the first try. Then, we went all over Oklahoma to find me pants that have elastic. Honestly, I don't care if I look like a granny in polyester! We took lunch up to the hospital and visited my grandmother. Still no change, she is not well. Once we left there, we continued our search for pants, went grocery shopping and then prepared dinner for my mom and my great aunt. Once that was over, we went back to the hospital, only stayed for a short time because my grandmother was having a rough time, and came home to cook. I am...or should I say was... going to bring my homemade salsa and cupcakes to the 4th celebration tomorrow. Let's just say it is now 11:53pm, no cupcakes, and I had a small meltdown. I literally took a cupcake and pounded it into the counter. Breakdown, is more like it. Needless to say, the salsa is in the fridge, but the cupcakes are in the trash. PLUS, my homemade buttercream icing is not setting properly, and I think it is due to the excessive heat. I am either going to cheat and buy box mix in the morning, or just buy some dessert! We have a doctors appointment at 8am tomorrow, so I am headed to bed. Today we listened to "Chasing Pavements" by Adele, whom we love. It helped us clean the house quickly before company. What am I thankful for? That I don't normally get so mad that I start smashing stuff in my house. Hormones... what a treat! ~Amy
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Feeling Better
Well, today was a better day. I have come to love elastic. My jeans, that are my comfy jeans, are so tight that I cannot even button them. For the next couple weeks, I am going to have to be OK with "comfy" pants. So be it! I talked to my nurse this morning about why I am so bloated and irritable. She brought out the obvious... I have an enormous amount of hormones in me! Again, last time I did not have these side effects and it didn't work, so...process of elimination...
Today was day 1 of my long weekend. I went to the doctor and then to the hospital to see my grandmother. She is not doing very well. It is strange with her, though, because she is a strong, stubborn woman. For those who don't know, she was diagnosed with cancer 11 years ago and was given 6 months to live. Obviously, she beat those odds. Everyone is amazed that this is her first hospital stay since. Again, she is strong. It is hard to know if she will bounce back or not. She has a mind of her own, and nobody will stop her. Hmm.. maybe that is where I get it from! I was so happy today because one of my childhood friends, who I don't talk to nearly as much as I should, called and we talked for 2 hours. It felt like 10 minutes. I was shocked when I hung up the phone and realized how long it was. It was so good to hear from her. My husband and I picked up my grandmother's sister from the airport this evening, and took her to the hospital. It is so wonderful that her side of the family is coming out of the woodwork, from all around the U.S. to see her. Today, I am thankful that my grandmother has family that cares enough about her to come and see her. Also, it helps my mother and I tremendously.
Tomorrow will be our appointment at OBI. Hopefully this time around, they won't torture my husband in getting his blood. (That still makes me giggle.) The song that made me smile today was "Tonight's Going to be a Good Night" by the Black Eyed Peas. That is ironic, I know, because I really don't like them. It has been in my head all day, for some reason, and has put pep in my step! ~Amy
Today was day 1 of my long weekend. I went to the doctor and then to the hospital to see my grandmother. She is not doing very well. It is strange with her, though, because she is a strong, stubborn woman. For those who don't know, she was diagnosed with cancer 11 years ago and was given 6 months to live. Obviously, she beat those odds. Everyone is amazed that this is her first hospital stay since. Again, she is strong. It is hard to know if she will bounce back or not. She has a mind of her own, and nobody will stop her. Hmm.. maybe that is where I get it from! I was so happy today because one of my childhood friends, who I don't talk to nearly as much as I should, called and we talked for 2 hours. It felt like 10 minutes. I was shocked when I hung up the phone and realized how long it was. It was so good to hear from her. My husband and I picked up my grandmother's sister from the airport this evening, and took her to the hospital. It is so wonderful that her side of the family is coming out of the woodwork, from all around the U.S. to see her. Today, I am thankful that my grandmother has family that cares enough about her to come and see her. Also, it helps my mother and I tremendously.
Tomorrow will be our appointment at OBI. Hopefully this time around, they won't torture my husband in getting his blood. (That still makes me giggle.) The song that made me smile today was "Tonight's Going to be a Good Night" by the Black Eyed Peas. That is ironic, I know, because I really don't like them. It has been in my head all day, for some reason, and has put pep in my step! ~Amy
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Another Day, Another 3 Shots
The marathon of shots continued. Amy tolerated them better tonight, but is still completely uncomfortable. Today at work one of her coworkers, who knows what she is going through, felt bad for her and told her she could definitely tell she is swollen. Other than the swelling and being super tired, Amy feels good. I know everyone is concerned right now, but as Amy's friend told her maybe the hormones are really doing their job this time.
We went to see Amy's grandmother after work tonight. Unfortunately, she is not getting any better. Amy is off tomorrow and Friday but will not have an opportunity to get any extra sleep because she has a doctors appointment at 7:30am tomorrow morning. Today I am thankful for Amy's friends who can bring a smile to her face. Thanks, Jami, she needed it today. I hope your procedure goes good for you tomorrow. The song of the day is "Wasting Time" by Jack Johnson. This song kept me awake drafting documents at work today. It is also a great song to lounge around to.
Z
We went to see Amy's grandmother after work tonight. Unfortunately, she is not getting any better. Amy is off tomorrow and Friday but will not have an opportunity to get any extra sleep because she has a doctors appointment at 7:30am tomorrow morning. Today I am thankful for Amy's friends who can bring a smile to her face. Thanks, Jami, she needed it today. I hope your procedure goes good for you tomorrow. The song of the day is "Wasting Time" by Jack Johnson. This song kept me awake drafting documents at work today. It is also a great song to lounge around to.
Z
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