Today I feel a little better. My husband's mother and aunt came in for lunch and we had a nice time. We laughed, which is something that I haven't done since Thursday night. I also ate some chocolate...whoops. I am sure God is OK with that. I will start back with my Lent devotion tomorrow.
I have been in a depression, I have had a dark cloud over my head and I refuse to live like this. My husband and I have decided to go through In-vitro again. We will save the money and as soon as we are able, we are going to try this again. My mother-in-law said that she handles stress/grieving the same way. In order for me to get over something, I have to have a plan of action. We have talked about it and decided that we want to do this again. We will find a way to do this. If I have to sell my wedding ring, all my china, and my designer purses I will do it. It is worth every penny. I always told my husband that I would marry him with a $100 ring from James Avery and I meant it. Maybe it is time to "walk the walk." I will have to give up my lifestyle that I am used to and adjust to being frugal! We WILL do this and we WILL be happy with ourselves for the decision we have made. The earliest we can do this again is in May.
Thank you everyone who has called, emailed, sent cards, sent flowers (again...Tammi and Amy - you are amazing women and we are BLESSED to have you in our lives) and prayed for us. We could not be luckier people. I truly mean that. We have amazing people in our lives who care about us and the beautiful thing is we knew this before the sadness that has occurred which means more than words ever will.
I can see a light at the end of my tunnel, so now it is time for me to bathe.
~Amy
Okay, maybe it's because I've spent the past couple days catching up on 2 seasons of Desperate Housewives, but when I read your post today my first thought was to go Bree Van De Kamp on you and organize a "Let's Make Bradt Babies" bake sale. Does that make me crazy? Anyway, I'm estatic that you're going to try again...like I said before, I don't know how it will happen, or when, but you two WILL be parents someday, and those Bradt babies are going to be blessed with 2 awesome parents. We're here to help you in whatever way we can (and I'm only half kidding about the bake sale...I'll get my creative juices flowing). In the meantime, prayers will keep going up from us on your behalf! ~Dee Parsons
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