Update!

Yeah, it has been a long time since I blogged, but I haven’t had the energy. Also, things that I want to say might get me in trouble. Let’s just say that the past two weeks; I have had a mouth that could make a sailor blush…

How are we doing? We are completely deflated. This time, we are not so depressed, just angry. Everybody around us keeps getting pregnant, those who will be great parents and deserve it, and those who are as dumb as a box of rocks, and we wonder if they even know how to feed and wipe a baby. Also, I am in an extracurricular activity with a girl that I might punch in the face the next time I see her. Every time I am around her (she is 6 months pregnant) she complains about how fat she is getting. Really, genius? You are pregnant. I understand that in your shallow and vain world, you are all that matters, but God has blessed you with a gift that will make you gain weight because there is something GROWING IN YOUR BODY!

Seriously, I am about 1 conversation away from hitting a pregnant chick. Do you think I need a vacation? How can people be so stupid? You know, that is something that I have wondered about my whole life. Thank God I have a mother that is beautiful inside and out. For those who have never met my mother, she is absolutely beautiful and people always talk about her beauty. My mother, however, has never been impressed by it. Luckily, she taught me the same thing. People that obsess with outer beauty are shallow individuals. My favorite is when Christians focus on that. Hmmmm… Irony? I am pretty sure that God doesn’t want us to love a shell; we are supposed to love the soul. And another thing that I have always wondered for these people who are consumed with outer beauty; what happens when your really attractive spouse/boyfriend/child has an accident, or is horribly burned, and they are not as attractive anymore? Do you stop loving them? To me, this is a perfect example of how our society does not shadow Jesus.

Well, now that I am off of my soap box (this happens lately – so watch out) we have decided to take a MUCH needed vacation. I think that we will go over Labor Day weekend. Not sure where yet. We love the Caribbean (Honey if you are reading this, please take me to the Turks and Caicos), but it is hurricane season. I have been to Mexico soooooooooo many times, that I think I could be a Gonzales. We would love to go to the East Coast, but don’t have the money we would need right now to do a New England adventure. My husband has never been to Disneyworld, but I am not sure I want to be around screaming children. Decisions, decisions. Any ideas?

So the million dollar question; what now? Well, in-vitro is not an option. (1) We do not have another $20,000 sitting around to spend (2) Even if we did, we are not wasting that money on an unsure outcome right now (3) Try naturally, knowing that we will suffer numerous miscarriages (4) Adopt (5) Move to Chicago. We have been talking about it a lot lately, and we just need to have a change in our life. We cannot decide whether we will adopt or move, but the decision will be made by Christmas. I honestly think that he is leaning more to the Chicago thing right now. I am on board 100% with whatever he wants to do. The perks about moving to Chicago? (1) In Illinois, in-vitro is typically, at least, partially covered by insurance (2) We could both increase our salaries significantly (which would help with adoption b/c these days it is anywhere from $15-$40k!!) (3) Why not? We are young, and it would be a blast!

So, that is what we have been doing lately. I know this blog is really long, but it has been 2 weeks!

Amy