It Looks Like it Snowed in Our House!

So, we are on for round 2! How am I feeling about it? Well, do you have the time to listen?? Nervous, anxious, panicked, excited, happy, scared; I could go on and on! I am really not sure how to feel right now. I am happy that I have been through it once before, regardless of the outcome, because I know exactly what to expect. I know each step, each pain, each joy, everything. I will not have the anxiety or the uncomforting feeling of the unknown. I will know the affects of the shots (although this time they are doubling my dose), I will know the discomfort of the ultrasounds, and I will know the happiness of seeing an egg being planted, and being pregnant, if only for an hour. I know that several people are concerned about my mental state and whether or not I can handle it if it does not go as we hope. I can honestly say that I will be fine, you all can rest! My mental state is not the issue, as I am a true believer in everything is pre-planned and there is nothing we can do to stop His plan. My issue will be the guilt; my guilt for disappointing everyone else. Do you remember as a child when you did something bad or wrong and instead of your mom getting mad and yelling at you, or punishing you, she told you how disappointed she was in your decision? Well multiply that empty, gut wrenching feeling by 1,000 and that is what it feels like not to be able to give your husband a child, or your family a grandchild. It is the worst! On a happier note, you all know I am a HUGE believer in signs (that is probably why am I such a fan of the movie Fools Rush In). Well, get this: (1) my implantation date would be around June 28th…. My mother’s birthday and (2) the babies will be in Chicago this time… where my family was born and raised! This time I know my grandfather will watch over them and this will be a success! I just feel it!

Moving on… tomorrow I turn 32!!! More importantly how is it April16th? What happened to January-March? I cannot get over how time has disappeared! I went to my first Junior League meeting last night and cannot wait to get involved! What a great organization. They do so much for Oklahoma City – it is just wonderful. Anyway, when I got back my husband was sanding the wall where our repair guy applied the plaster… we should have had him come back and finish the job… See; let me go back to the beginning. Our repairman came over last Friday while I was off and repaired some things, one being where the curve in our entry cracked. So, he plastered the wall and asked when he could come back and finish the job. Well, knowing our schedule, I could not give him a date so I told him we would finish it. (Since we are having a party tomorrow night, it HAS to be done) Ok, how hard is it to sand and paint??? My husband has a sander, I love to paint, easy breezy! Well back to last night. I come home and he is working away making the plaster smooth to match our texture with a cloud of dust surrounding him. It reminded me of Pig Pen from the Peanuts! Long story short, we got some stuff done and went to bed. This morning, however, there is about 1 inch of lovely white dust over EVERYTHING in our house. It is ridiculous. It spread, literally, throughout our entire house. Great…. As if we don’t already have enough to do to get ready for the party!!!
~Amy